Catch up? Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5 “Master Drake…” Drake held up his hand to stay whatever words about to trip of Fritz tongue. A useless task, as his valet continued on anyway. “You need to actually speak with the young lady instead of scaring her.” “I’m not scaring Bella.” …
I’m very good at convincing myself I don’t need touch. Too good, actually. Long periods without it and I stop thinking about it. Same as I do with sex. I block it out so I don’t crave it even if it’s what I need. The other bad thing is I’ve been touched when I haven’t …
This week’s Wicked Wednesday is about mental illness. I’ve written a little about being anxious in my A post for the A to Z challenge. That is an undiagnosed issue I have as a well as being a perfectionist, but that’s not necessarily a problem. I’d kind of like to talk about something unrelated, but …
My immediate family isn’t very large. I have a host of half siblings, but when my father died visiting that side of the family decreased to once every 5-10 years. My older (maternal half) sister never really cared for me. By the time I came on the scene, she’d pretty much solidified her place as …
I’ve always struggled with feeling like I don’t deserve things. Relationships, nice things, happiness, love… I don’t know if I deserve those things. When those are things easily taken away, or have been taken away, so I must not be worthy of those things. It makes me think about how privilege plays a role in …
Come, church, cuffs, cats. I had so many Cs in my head that instead of picking one, I’ll talk about a few Cs Cunt The first c that popped into my head this morning. It drew me back to the mindful masturbation bit. I was thinking about how those times you just sit and stroke …
Recently, I led a session at Eroticon about being an anxious writer. Tiny aside: If anyone is interested in purchasing an Anxious Writers Club shirt, do message me as there are plenty left Part of being in the Anxious Writers Club was having issues with actually writing, or how anxiety can stop that process. I …
So the 4th round of Smut Marathon is done and we’ve slid into round 5 for those who remain. A lot of feelings surfaced at the close of voting and I’ve debated a lot about my response to it. Here’s my entry: “So fucking sexy.” The words carry her to the bed, caressing her body …
I struggle with jealousy. No, not that kind of jealous. You’d think it would be, right? I’m currently in a D/s relationship with a man who’s married. Add to that the aspect of it being a long distance relationship where I’m obviously not there as often as I’d like. Recipe for jealousy? Not so much. …