It’s been… a while. I’ve been struggling of late. The first time in a long time where I haven’t had much of an urge to write that wasn’t brought on by some form of depression. The spark… is just absent. It makes me nervous, but not as nervous as usual, which is hard to process. …
I’m too late for the mental health tag, but it’s late and I don’t have a story for E formed enough to write it. Sleep and I have had our differences. I struggle with anxiety and depression so if something has unsettled me I’ll ruminate and stress over it. On top of that, I also …
It’s late and I spent the entire day watching anime instead of writing. And that’s okay. I did want to write something though. What I’ve thought about more lately is how I feel better. I feel like there should be question marks after that because things are shit so I feel weird saying I feel …
It’s been hell. Not even in the sense that COVID-19 is turning the world upside down, because let’s be honest that shit is extra crazy. No, it’s been hell in my head. I’ve never been formally diagnosed with clinical anxiety or depression, but I’ve struggled with both. That makes dealing with the anxiety of this …
I wanted to just title this invisible, but I think it’s deeper than that. A few days ago, I mentioned on twitter that I often feel, and have felt, invisible. This may spiral into a ramble, but it’s been on my mind. I’ve talked about that before, feeling unseen. Honestly, it’s this something many girls, …
This week’s Lingerie Is For Everyone is about self love going into Valentine’s Day. It’s easy to say this made up holiday has no meaning, but it’s hard to ignore when others participate in it. I often contemplate how Valentine’s Day can make you feel a bit left out in love. Getting little cards in …
I’m avoiding story writing. I know that, I’m trying to face that by being honest. Part of me is scared that some of my creativity is gone after so long a break. I’m going to start small to overcome it, but for now I’m sticking to non fiction stuff. I’ll get there. I’ll get there… …
Whoa, this year, amiright? Never has a whole year felt like a damn decade. It seems a bit early to be writing a reflection post about the year, but at the rate I’ve been writing, if I don’t do it now it won’t happen. 2019 has been a difficult year for a variety of reasons. …
Today was a forced interaction day, but it also made me think. And me being me, I write it out. I spent time with an old friend. Not that I couldn’t say no, but there was pressure from both her and her mother to stop by for months now. Without giving too much away, it …
I’m trying my damndest to get back into the habit of writing at least once a week. I have active blogs (one non kink, one kink, and one writing), I’m managing to update none with any regularity. My non kink one hasn’t been updated since June at least even though I’ve had tons of ideas …