How do I define the state of my mind?
I am formless shapes changing daily
Black blobs, shifting smog lifting overhead
I get jumbled up sometimes
The want of things tangles me
I am too snared to make sense
A popularity contest
It’s not the talent I have,
But the determination I lack
I hold back the words I’d say
Because I don’t know how to act
Like the lady I pretend to be
Thanks. Maybe a hug will drag me out of this mental pit I’m in.
I’m willing to bet a good fucking and/or spanking would do the trick. If and when the opportunity arises, take it!
Lol. That’s actually what I was thinking I needed. If I wasn’t home, the odds of me getting either would be better.
There’s a solution for that. Step away from home for a while. Have you gotten any farther finding the spanking partner you wanted?
I’m visiting my mother so I’m not sure about finding someone in the town I’m currently in. No, it was a bust finding a regular spanker. Much to my disappointment.
We all feel that way sometimes….
Need your password… LK@littlekaninchen.com
I emailed you.
I can relate in my own way, just as I think that most people can relate to what you’ve skillfully expressed in writing here, because in our own way, we’ve all been there. Hang in there, Cara. I hope that these dark thoughts and feelings pass as quickly as possible for you.
We all been there and I had to find ways to climb from that empty dark hole. I don’t want to waste my time being sad and while it was hard I found my way… you can as well.
I’m working on it. The dark pit has been trying to swallow me lately and I’m trying not to let it.
For me “trying” is the first step towards getting to that “good” place. I wish you the best of luck. 🙂
Life is confusing. Hang in there…words I strongly dislike, but sometimes the only ones that seem truly appropriate. I’m just waiting for the day when I can feel like I’m doing more than just that. Liked the poem…especially the “hold back the words I’d say”. It’s a phrase I relate to…I think I hold back too much sometimes.
Thanks. I dislike biting my tongue, but seem to always be doing it.