Just as it was picking up steam, it petered out.
Yes, you’d be assuming right if your assumption was he decided to break things off with me. Because just like my previous post states, I’m not ready to settle down and do something serious right now. I guess he’s ready for all those things, plus kids, and didn’t want us to get too far because he wants those things right now.
Part of me, the extremely commitment phobic part, feels relieved. Another part of me is a little hurt that he wasn’t even willing to give it a longer go and see. I’d like all those things soon, but I’m just figuring my shit out so I’m not sure how soon. I wasn’t exactly expecting a stop sign though after having spent the entire day and night at his house. A huge thing for me, mind you.
I shed a tear or two out of frustration though. It’s hard investing in someone who then decides to call it quits on you. I do respect him for not stringing me along. We had fun together, he was quick to admit that, and I agree. I enjoyed him, but that’s it. Gotta be a big girl about this enjoyable, but otherwise short interlude we had together.
But under no circumstances will I be taking him up on his offer to be friends in a few months time. Sorry, bro, but I don’t collect friends with the ease that you supposedly do and I’m not interested in adding you to the select few I have. Pretty black and white of me (read: I’m a huge bitch) , but kiss my fat ass you claim to love so much. 🙂
So back to the drawing board, eh?
In other news, I did the professional nudes that I had on my list. Maybe you’ll see a pic up here in a few weeks. I need to modify that list and turn it into my 30 before 30. Working on it.